As I have been updating my Artist Blog/ Site on here, I've come back around to express what I'm going through in my mind and my heart through my Artist Journal. I like to write, I enjoy the relief from releasing backed up emotions, thoughts, misunderstandings and revelations. It's like taking a giant overhaul of an ethereal dump. I find when I would read other people venting and sharing their most inner raw feelings, that I would relate and feel a lot better about myself. I accepted myself and my circumstances with an openness and eventually with a zero thought mentality. Meaning, no more attention was paid to it. It just was, now.
I would look back at what I wrote and published publicly. I have no regrets as they are what they were. A moment in time. I'm not a mechanical heap of a robot that does things without depth, meaning or reason. An Artist's ability to feel immensely is a gift for many. Though it may be a curse at times for creators to go through such intensity, if we could alchemize them properly into what our soul needs, we may yet find salvation. At times, I do wish I could stop feeling and thinking and be nothing. Ya know? But, I can't for now. I can only navigate forward and focus on a peaceful stillness. So, for those who may feel shame, regret or an unease for feeling so much and expressing it, I say two things- don't beat yourself up for being intelligent and being able to discern. The other is, maybe don't take things too far. A healthy balance is in order for each, in their own.
Though there is always more to write about as life goes on, let's switch gears and have some fun! Bring on the AI Art Generations!
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